countingshadows07's Blog

I wake up.... and see nothing but darkness. I hear someone calling my name...... but who? I follow the voice which leads me to nowhere. I'm alone....... but feel someone else in the room. I say hello....... but nothing came out of my mouth. I start to panic......... then here something tell me to go the other way. I start running but stop........ I hear another tell me to stay put. He sounds convincing......... so I stay. All around me now is darkness....... I don't here anyone else but my own thoughts now.

i can't reall blaim anyone but myself for the way i am.... and the way i feel.  i do it all to myself.  i just feel that im such a bad person, and maybe that's why i have no real friends. inside of me is aiching so much that i can't even put it into words....  i feel like something, someone is missing. and i don't know what to do. im basically lost in my own nightmare,

i just wish i could wake up. at times i feel like crying but i can't... i waisted all of my tears on nothing, no one special but myself.

i hurt and dissapoint everyone and everything that comes into my direction. im infected.... my disease is everything i am that makes myself and others run away from me...

i feel like im crying out as loud as i can for help but really not saying anything at all... that's not even possible.

My mood: extremely nauseated